What will be will be, and so it goes...

Yep, in TEN DAYS i shall be a college graduate. Exciting, huh?
I am working hard now this week to finish up papers and such...I only had one exam, but probably around 50 or so pages worth of papers to write.
On other fronts, we had our last ever theater gathering (apparantely it was not the semiformal) last Saturday, where we got cute JHU Barnstormers shotglasses. I didn't stay very long, but it was nice to see some of the people for the last time. I'm not meeting a lot of my theater friends for lunch/dinner/coffee before they all scurry off to their hometowns for the summer, or at least for a few weeks. It's odd now that people are leaving since I am pretty much going to stay here until the end of the month to move out and such. I remember in all the previous years I could not wait to get home, and now I am cherishing every day I have left in Baltimore. I am going to miss this place.

On another note, I am going to Serbia at the end of the month!! I cannot wait. It's going to be amazing. I was bummed about the whole not really working there officially deal, but I think it shall be nice to relax and spend time with my cousins and my friends there. I definitely need a vacation this summer before I start work and eventually law school, so I can't think of a better place than Serbia...

Okay, time to finish up one of my last papers ever as a Hopkins Undergrad.
Senior Week starts in TWO days!! Woot!

So all of my theatre-related activities are officially over as of this weekend. On Friday night we did Rocky Horror Picture show, which was a great time. It was cool being in it, and a lot of fun onstage as well as backstage. I wish that more of my good friends were there- there was a good crowd, but aside from Tony, no one that I really knew was there. The TC show was before it, so i had hoped that a lot of those people would stay, but they didn't really. It was a theater-filled night, first with the last Buttered Niblets show, TC, and then Rocky all in Arellano in a row. Most of my Barnstormers/Urinetown friends were there, so we had a great time, esp. during the TC show. The Rocky party was a bit disappointing, because aside from Toni, no one in the cast came, and it was at a house where I didn't know most of the people.

Saturday was the Barnstormers semiformal, which was a good time. First we had a surprise dinner birthday thing for our senior friend Jess Barry- Tony and I went, and Ashley, Chris H, Adam were there, which was cool. A certain boy called me around 11ish, as he had promised to do when i called him on fri night to come to rocky, and walked me to the semi (which was at Joe's house). So I figured it was going to be a good night in regards to that, and a good oppurtunity for me to finally do something I had been wanting to do. But alas, as soon as we got to the party, we pretty much didn't speak to each other for the rest of the night. It's not even like we were avoiding each other, he just made no effort to speak to me. And I could have made an effort, but i figured why bother if he wasn't. I was sad because I was hoping he'd walk me home or something. Oh well, I guess it just wasn't supposed to happen, despite my best efforts. One of my good friends walked me home, and we talked for a while in my building. Overall I had a good time, though it was a little bittersweet because it was the last time I would see most of these people in this context. A bunch of us got the infamous "Barneys", which was cool. I'm really going to miss everyone- I really feel like they have become my family this year, considering how much theater stuff I have done during this past schoolyear. I only wish I hadn't taken freshmen year off from theater, because it's what really makes me happy and where I really belong. Hopefully I will have the oppurtunity to keep doing theater later in life. I shall definitely come back to at least some of the performances next year, esp. the mainstage/musical and at least a couple of the Witness showcases since a lot of my good friends will be on the board next year (Rob, Aparna, Jen P).

And thus ends an era...Now it's time to finish up these last few weeks of schoolwork, and then it's onto SENIOR WEEK AND GRADUATION!!!

The Witness Theater Spring Showcase goes up tonight, thus marking my last theater endeavor at Hopkins. The shows are thurs, fri at 8 and Sun at 5 pm in Arellano. I can't even believe this is it. I guess we still have the whole weekend so I will try not to think about it until it is Sunday evening. There's only one more week of classes left as well. I just can't believe everything is slowly coming to an end. Oh well, time to move on I suppose. Come see Witness this weekend!

I like to think I live each day and undergo any experience without any regrets, but this past weekend proved to me that perhaps I shouldn't have been part of Urinetown. Sure it was fun, and it's a great show etc, but the exhaustion, getting behind in schoolwork, not to mention all the added stress and drama that ensued from it were not worth the good times. I'm sure in a month (or week) i'll disagree with this, but right now I really wish I hadn't done it. And i don't think i've ever been able to say that about a production before. I'd like to think everything is worth the life lessons, and to take the good with the bad. But was this? No. It was full of crap and pretty much a waste of my time.

The whole graduation thing just dawned on me tonight for some reason. And I'm scared and excited. And I don't want college to end. I feel like I've just begun.

Wow, I wouldn't even know where to begin...so much has happened. Urinetown (the musical) is officially over as of 8 pm this past Sunday, which is sad. This means the last Witness showcase is my final theatre endeavor at JHU, and U-town had been my last Barnstormers one.

Urinetown was perhaps one of the most interesting theater productions I have been involved with, in, oh, ever. The show itself was amazing with an incredibly talented cast. There were a lot of freshmen and sophomores, so I feel that I got to expand my horizons and get to know a lot of really cool people well. My ASM, Kaitlin, is amazing! She is the sweetest person ever, and we became quite close. The highlight was when she yelled at Bill right before the first Sunday show when he did something that hurt me. She's normally nice and sweet- it took everyone by surprise. The show itself is probably one of my favorite shows of all time, right up there with Rent. I wish i could have seen it when it was still up on Broadway. In regards to other aspects of the production, our director was a bit anal and wacky- Kaitlin and i had to tape out the ENTIRE set for EVERY rehearsal for the first 3 weeks until we got into Swirnow. It was a pain in the butt. She was also super anal during tech week, because she kept making our lightning designer change things literally every day, and she was never happy with it. Overall though she did a good job, since the show turned out really well (the set was AMAZING!), and it was sold out at least two of the nights. U-town was also interesting because it was perhaps the most drama-filled cast ever. There are so many love triangles and trapezoids and pentagons that it's like a movie. I'm even involved in a sort of love triangle. In fact, almost every single person in the cast and crew was involved. It was a bit ridiculous. We also did a hell of a lot of cast bonding, including Cast Olympics, which turned into a night of drinking rather than competing after we got through a 40 chug, arm wrestling, and regular wrestling, but was fun nonetheless. We also did a scavenger hunt around campus, which was cool too. We had split ourselves up based on characters, the revolution vs. the establishment. I was on the establishment because I was arm wrestling Bill, and he's the leader of the revolution. We literally spent every weekend night after rehearsal together for the last 4-5 weeks. It's going to be quite odd not seeing everyone- Urinetown was really the highlight of my social life this semester. Overall, it was a great las production to end my Hopkins Barnstormers career with. Even taking into account the drama and heartache, I wouldn't have traded this experience for anything.

Now it's onto Witness and Rocky Horror in two weeks, and then school is done in 4...ahhh! I keep hoping May will never come...

Spring Break has always meant the start of March Madness, one of my favorite sports periods of the year. This year so far there have been some surprises...VCU beat Duke (thank god), which i totally called in my bracket, but it was more wishful thinking at the time because i despise duke and really wanted them out in the first round. I think they were always overrated, and their crappy season has shown that JJ Redick was really the only reason they were so 'good' to begin with. Of course this is all being written as a hardcore Tar Heels fan, so it could be a bit biased...On another note, Butler just beat Maryland into the sweet 16, which is also surprising. I didn't have UMD going past the sweet 16, but i never doubted they'd at least make it that far. Tonight the big games i care about are UNC vs. Michigan State (go heels!), and BC vs. Georgetown. I really want gtown to lose- i dont hate them as much as duke, but i really think they are also overrated (though they have had a ridiculously good season i admit), and i want them to be humbled. Plus BC is an ACC school, which is the conference i care the most about. We shall see how it goes- the NCAA always yields some interesting results...

I am really loving this break. Been spending a lot of time with my best friend, got quite a lot of work done (in preparation for Urinetown craziness that will ensue as soon as we go back to school), and spent time with my family. All in all, it's been good.

Dinner and a movie with my best friend...what could be better?

We saw the movie 300, which turned out to be quite good. It isn't quite up to the Gladiator level of caliber (but then again Gladiator is an AMAZING movie), but it was quite good. Better than i was expecting actually, since i am not one for super gruesome fight scenes, and i had a bias towards the movie since Ancient Greek history is one of my favorite time periods, and i don't like movies messing it up (ahem Troy). The cinematography was great- they sped up and slowed down fight scenes in a great way, and the soundtrack was quite good too. All in all, I was impressed. It makes me want to read the comic it's based on. Oh! Also, there was a preview for Spiderman 3- i cannot wait!! Topher Grace is the bad guy in this one, so it's TWO of my favorite scrawny guys in the same movie! It's going to be amazing.

Life's a little bit disappointing right now. I didn't get into any of my top choice law schools. I'm still waiting on a couple, but all the ones i had my heart set on are out. I'm not even sure that i'll go to any of the ones left- i might just defer for a year and find a cool job or something and reapply to my top choices. I am currently in a state of panic about next year. I'm going to use this week I have for spring break to research as many job oppurtunities as i can, and use my contacts at various places. Hopefully that'll work.

I'm also a little bit disgruntled on the romantic front too. I'd say i'm generally pretty open when i like someone and all that jazz, but it's just turning into one disappointment after another. Take, for example, my most recent romantic endeavor. I spent the whole evening with him and one of my good friends and we had a nice time, and when my friend and i got to her place she said to me, "wow he seems really into you." I had sort of noticed it too, but i always think these things are in my head. It's not like i just met him either- i've been spending a lot of time with him since january due to the fact that he was in the play i directed, and that we are currently working on theater-related stuff together. I guess i was sort of harboring a little crush on him for a while, but it started to emerge when i became more confident that he might like me too. I took a chance last week after he posted a facebook rant about never getting women, and told him i like him a lot. He responded that he likes me too, but he's dealing with a lot of emotional stuff right now and can't date. I understand that, esp. with all the stuff going on in his life, but i can't help thinking that it's a line. I'd like to assume that he wouldnt tell me he likes me unless he meant it, but you never know with people these days. I spent another whole afternoon with him recently, and he threw in the "i just want to be your friend" and "i dont have time to date" stuff intermittently during our conversation as a subtle reminder. Not that i was coming onto him or anything either. Oh well, it seems like every situation ends the same way, no matter how good of a person the guy is, or if it actually seems like he might like me too (or even flat out says it in this case). I don't even know why i bother anymore.